i am so sick and tired of all those shit that happened. can i jus quickly go shanghai so i wont have to bother about all these?

time really flies, 13 mar is here once again. the dae i would never forget, tht dreadful dae. the dae when my granny passed away...

i asked daddy if we were goin to pray tml but he asked mi why which made mi felt so disappointed because he didnt remember cause he onli remembered the lunar date which is already over. yea, we prayed tat dae. i wondered how would life be if granny was still around? would i still be able to go shanghai? i dunoo.. maybe i dun even wan to go.. i miss granny though she always nag, i came to realise during my GC discussion that granny actually cares, but she dun show it. i used to tink he onli cared fer my brother cus he's a guy and i still tink she love him more, jus that he dun appreciate it. i guessed he regretted wad he did, but we jus din sae it out. i still remember my sister burst out cryin tht dae when we heard the news about granny. she regretted cus she always "quarelled" with her. i jus froze.. i din noe wad to do or sae, i wanted to go to the hospital, but my dad asked mi to stay at home. i din wanna disobey him, so he went with mum. i still remember clearly wad happened cus its so unforgettable. i told myself to stay at home more often if granny came back.. but she nv did..

my tutor gave mi an example about parents showing their love by asking their children to sleep early so that they would get enough sleep. you understand? hopefully you do, because every parent do care abt their children. it's jus the way they show their love that is different. often when we watch western movie, we often see the family so loving, hugging and kissing but in true life, it's not like that. maybe there are families that are like tht, but it's because they learn from the shows. pple have elvoed, change. we are different lot of ppl from the ppl in the past in terms of clothes we wear, the life we live etc... actually i dun tink any1 will read tis as it's jus.. someting i wanna type.

i duno wad to type. not because of the one yr anniversary, but abt band and other stuffff.. i wanna go shanghai!! but i noe that's running away and i noe that when i come back, the pb will still be there.. at least i got 6/7 daes of PEACE!!

i am so touched by yun, xiu, suet and meng!! cus they wan to send mi off!! so sweet!! but suet and meng got performance tat dae.. so .. i duno.. ahha!! but actually its the tot that counts.

counting down to shanghai, about 15 more dae?.. here i comE!!